This morning marked
the completion of the preliminary test before in vitro. It’s called a mock
transfer and involved stirrups and probes... fun times. Anyway, now that the preliminary tests are completed, we start the official
process in a few weeks... actually about the same time I start my new job. Mind
you, it takes almost 2 months before we get to the stage of the actual embryo transfer
so we’re still a ways away. This morning I was exciting that things would
finally start moving along very soon. Tonight, panic has since settled in. What
if this doesn’t work? 60% chance of failure is a big number. I was lying in bed
until a few minutes ago but I had to get up cause my mind was racing. I keep
going over the steps involved in the process in my mind and keep coming to the
end of the process and panicking that it might not work. If it doesn’t take...
I’m not sure I can deal. We’ll be taped out financially, not to mention
emotionally. I know I should stay positive, but all I keep imagining is the
worse. I wish I could just turn off my brain. :-(
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*HUG* it does work for some tho on first go (about 40% of them, eh? ;)) so try and focus on that. Glad the mock transfer went well... good luck with stims & such!
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